Let It Go

Whenever I shared some difficult experience with my brother, he would say “let it go” as if it were a simple thing to do.  But “letting go” has never been easy for me.  I was twelve when my father died, and I mourned that loss until I graduated from college with my Master’s degree in History.

The Smithsonian had offered me a research position and my mother drove me there from Texas for the interview to learn where I would be working and what the job entailed.  As a claustrophobic, I couldn’t see myself working in this tiny office at the top of what felt like a tower in King Arthur’s castle.  I thanked them for the offer, and we went to New Jersey where my stepfather’s sister lived. It was there that mother found me in a closet, weeping and screaming, “Daddy!” as if I were still a little girl. I was twenty-two years old.

When I took an unpaid leave of absence from being a professor at a small college in Colorado to live with one of my former college students in California, she had quit smoking; I had not.  Her rule was: no smoking in the house or the garage. No problem. I took my cup of coffee and cigarettes to my car in the carport and chatted with my Daddy.  I was forty-three.

It wasn’t until I had a session with a healer in Pagosa Springs that I realized one of the main reasons we need to let go.  She did not ask why I was there; she would not let me say anything.  In moments, she said, “Your attachment to your father is keeping him from moving on.”  Holy Moses!  I was seventy-two at that time and knew I had let him go many years before then.  But she was right in sensing that I was “holding on”, but it was to someone else, not my father.

If you read my series, “The Irony of Life”, you know I have been holding onto my life in Colorado for going on eleven months, despite my morning mantra, “This is where I live now…”  But this morning (February 26, 2021), something happened to encourage me to let it go.  I read the Canier Daily Horoscope for Pisces:

“The Full Moon promises that, if you can courageously let go of a regret, a more optimistic future awaits. This weekend’s Full ‘Snow’ Moon brings with it an abundance of energy which, if used correctly, can transform your life.”

I believe what he says could be true for me.  And I will continue doing Ho’oponopono to forgive myself for all my mistakes and regrets so that “letting go” becomes easier:

“I’m sorry.  Please forgive me.  Thank you.  I love you.”

As Molly Beauchemin explains, “With regular practice, reciting these four simple phrases helps develop self-love and self-esteem at the times when we need it most. In this way, it’s both a lullaby to the self and a guaranteed insightful way to approach forgiving other people.”*

What about you? 

Are you holding onto something in the past that keeps you from being in The Present Moment?

Related Articles:

  1. The Irony of Life, Part 19:  Letting Go
  2. Bless You, Joe Vitale!
  3. “Hands-off Healing”: Ho’oponopono
  4. “Understanding True Forgiveness” by Molly Beauchemin

Till next time, “Please be kind to everyone you meet, for we all have our hidden sorrows.” ~Tzadd

One response to “Let It Go

  1. Forgiving myself has proven to be one of the hardest challenges I’ve ever encountered. If it were only a matter of repeating till believing then I’d already be more optimistic, I’ll keep on, though…
    Love to you forever and a day, Joey

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